I was just reading an article in the Washington Post about newsman Tim Russert, who died suddenly Friday at only 58.
"No
one could see Tim in a room and not smile," said his fellow journalist
Diane Sawyer. "He brought so much joy and curiosity and sheer vitality
to all our lives."
What a testimony to a personality that glowed with love.
I
long to think that when I'm gone, somebody could say something like
that about me. Not because I long to be famous, like Russert was, but
because I long to glow with love. I long to be the kind of person that
when people see me walk into a room, they smile, because love radiates
from me in waves and touches them with joy.
I long to be
the kind of person who has an aura of peace around them, a person who
doesn't sow discord, a person who doesn't repeat unkind rumors, a
person who looks for the strengths, the good in people instead of the
weaknesses and failings. A person who helps build bridges, a person
who helps heal hurts.
I fall far short. But it is good to have an ideal, a goal to work toward.
A
long time ago in the Becomers Sunday School Class at the First
Methodist Church in my Mississippi hometown, our teacher, my dear
friend, had us memorize a lot of Scripture verses. And one of them was
from Galatians, about the fruits of the Spirit. To me, it means if you
have let God in and let Him have you, you will share His personality
traits. Which are, according to the list in Galatians: Love. Joy.
Peace. Patience. Kindness. Goodness. Faithfulness. Gentleness.
Self-control.
That list is a kind of a litmus test, for
me. If I'm living the way I want to live, thinking the way I want to
think, praying the way I want to pray, walking close to my Shepherd in
His green pasture instead of wandering off into the brambles and poison
ivy, my personality will start to glow, like His does, with all of
those qualities. And Love is at the top of the list.
If
I'm walking in His light, I'll be ABLE to love. To me, that means I'll
be able to see into people's hearts, past their masks, past their
natural human personalities, and into the real person deep inside, the
person God made them to be, the person they really want to be, the
person they are in the process of becoming. The tender, inner person
that most of us do our best to keep hidden and protected from a
potentially hurtful world by building walls and putting on a variety of
diversionary masks.
And if you can pull that off, if you
can look into people's hearts, you really CAN love everybody. That
doesn't mean being best friends with everybody, or even really LIKING
everybody. It doesn't mean that everybody is a person you'd choose to
go on vacation with. But it does mean that you can look at them with
God's eyes, just a little bit, and see the good in them. See that they
are much like you, on the inside. That they have their hopes and fears
and dreams and hurts, too. That they are, in their inmost tender core,
longing to be loved — just like you are, just like I am.
Loving
people like this has been a challenge for me always. You can just
imagine that it was sometimes difficult when I was teaching school. I
usually had no trouble loving my junior high and high-school kids, but
every once in a while, I'd get one that I just couldn't make myself
like. I remember one in particular. She was from a wealthier family
than most of the kids in our little school, and was better-dressed, and
had a smart mouth. She was famous for her sharp, "cool" put-downs of
other kids, and she turned her sarcastic tongue on me more than once. I
really felt like she hated me the first year she was in my English
class, and believe me, she wasn't my favorite.
I would
reluctantly pray for her sometimes, because He says we're supposed to
pray for our enemies. I made lots of mistakes. But my Shepherd
faithfully helped me when I'd drop the ball. He really wanted me to
love her.
Let me just tell you this. After she had
graduated, three years after I had first taught her, I was at the first
high school football game of the next season, and I saw her walking
along the front of the bleachers, all dressed up, home from Ole Miss.
She spotted me in the stands and climbed all the way up in her high
heels to give me a hug and sit by me for a little while. I was glad to
see her, I really was. Love had won.
However, I’m sorry
to tell you, there have been others over the years whom I've really
struggled to love, and still haven't succeeded. One in particular has
hated me ever since we first met when we were teenagers, and to be
perfectly honest, I harbor a deep dislike for her, too. I need to pray
more for her. I need to pray for her as she cares for her elderly
mother, pray for her marriage, pray for her children — but to be
honest, I rarely do. I need to get serious about it.
I
hope before we die, we'll be able to look into each other's hearts with
love, and see the real women hiding inside. And to forgive each other
for a long lifetime litany of hurts and resentments, with the help of
the One Who forgave us. And be able to glow more brightly with love.
By Celia DeWoody
Copyright Harrison (Ark.) Daily Times 2008
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